Assalamualaikum... wish Allah will bless all of us..
very sadis of the day..(*....*) ehmph.., uwaaahhhh... i feel very worst of mine since after i finished my zakat interview..!! rite now, i am very, extremely willing to have the time machine that nabil has created or the doraemon's as i am very determine to 'putar-balik' masa... i do not know and ever expected how i can answer the question like that... rite now, i felt very worst!! (@________@)** dead me!!
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i am going to the pejabat zakat at 7.45 a.m with my second brother, angah..even we do not pretty sure about the route to the pejabat, but we do try our best as i have to perabis my kredit to ask my rock-blur-style friend about it.. so, penat but luckily, we found it with no lost..!! (^___^) wooah, alhamdulillah...!! so, after my brother parking, kitorang pun start jalan masuk the pejabat ngan muka teh-limau ais jeh.. (why, the limau ais?? as i am having my interview sickness so my muka tuh memang masam -masam kelat lah.. my brother mungkin bother with my face, so kira terpengaruh lah.. hehe..(^_*')
waktu masuk, memang kira antara yang terawal lah.. so, memang feel yang cuak tak tentu direction tuh agak pudar and luntur lah.. but yang tak berapa best, sebab agak-sangat-awal, memang tak dak sapa lah lagi kat situ.. so, memang boring tahap lah.. HUAAHHH!!! ('0')
so, tak palah.., dalam 30-25 minit after tuh, jumpalah member previous school.. memang tarik hembusan legalah.. sebab dah lah waktu tuh tak brapa sure lagi pasal susunan sijil dia.. so, bincang-bincang ckit ngan member then mulalah lepak bersembang ngan dia.. tengah kitorang dok rancak bersembang, ada satu puan nih mai kat kitorang and ask us to register ourself.. takpalah.., try check nama no brapa.. mak aihhh, memang bundar seguli lah mata nih nengok nama kat paper last, candidate no.55 from 60.. OMG!! OMG!! i start to fell the tak brapa best atmosphere.. (@________@)
my brother after dapat tau memang lesap terus..tak sanggup dah dia dok tunggu-tunggu.. aku pun tak brapa kisah lah sebab majoriti memang geng budak sekolah sbpikp pun yang dok berkampung kat situ.. kalo nak buat reunion pun cukup aihh... hehee..(^_^) so, kitorang pun start lah bincang-bincang..
first-first, diorang suruh masuk tiga bdk skali.. tapi dah sampai nak pukul dua, tapi separyh candidate pun tak abih, jadi diorang pun mula lah suruh masuk lima person each group.. ingat akan jadi makin cepat lah,.. tapi nampak keadaan macam lagi lama masa berlalu, lagi lama each group take time..
so, kira agak hangus gak lah dok menunggu kat luar tuh.. tapi.., it is still okay as patience is virtue, rite??(>_<)
so, punya lama dok nunggu, akhirnya sampai jugalah my turn.. firstly, after duduk-duduk jer, terus pengarah zakat tuh tanya kitorang, kenapa nak stadi kat mesir.. so, my answer ( in bm as dia pun tanya dalam bm).., saya memilih untuk melanjutkan pelajaran saya ke
zakat Mesir kerana pada pandangan saya, saya mempunyai kelebihan dalam bahasa ini kerana saya mempunyai asas pembelajaran bahasa ini sejak saya tingkatan satu hingga tingkatan lima. tambahan, saya juga cemerlang dalam bahasa ini, buktinya saya berjaya mendapat A dalam subjek bahasa ini ketika PMR dan SPM.---- and, tak sempat nak explain lanjut-lanjut, dia terus potong, 'ok,. kamu pula??~tanya kawan sebelah saya..' (+___+) i shout dalam hati, ' NAK CAKAP LAGI!!!!'
then, after pengarah tuh dah abis tanya soalan yang tadi tuh kat suma calon, the hospital director plak start tanya kitorang pasal our backgroud..( nih kena cakap dalam bi, kira speaking lah (^__^) hehee.. agak hepi, sebab copy ang paste jer ayat waktu interview jpa... ) my answer.., : born and named as Fatin syahirah binti shari, i am the youngest daughter of Haji Shari bin Ibrahim yang ensem-henchem and Hajah Patimah binti Omar yang Kiut-miut.. i was born on 25 oktober 1993 in hospital besar sg ptani. my parents both work as teachers in primary school. i started my primary education at sk taman knari and excel in my upsr examination with flying colours, 5 a's. then, i furthered my secondary education at a briliant bording school with title sbt, which is sbpikp. stepping into sbpikp really taught me to become more independenta nd matured person. joining red cresent society, rugby touch club,choral speaking club and hold some positions in those clubs such as president and tresurer realy sharpen my leadership skill and educate me to become more diligent and dicipline. i always considered myself as people person. as an active student in my previous school, i am constantly meeting new people and discussing different topics. as people always meeting me to disclose their personal issue related to religion as i was a badar comitee member and a naqibah, i learn to become not only a good conversationalist but also an excellent listener. i took my spm examination in 2010 and as the result i got 11 a's..... ---fuhhh, ending punnn.. jenuh nak taip!! (**___**)
but yang i pelik tuh.., kat suma member len dia ada gak mencelah tanya macam-macam.., but for me, she just tanya, what sport do you play..? then, i answer lah, i play rugby touch..(^_^) then she ask me back, rugby touch?? what is it?? (@__@) i start to bundarkan my mata.. belom sempat i nak explain anything, the interview sebelah dia pun tolong jawab, rugby touch tuh adalah game yang kena men sentuh-sentuh...~fuuuhhh! then, dengan selambernya dia reply, so it's mean that you don't need to keluar-keluar peluh lah...?? i pun dengan sekadar segeranya lah insist taht of course, keluar peluh.., as we have to run and protect the ball.. (+_+") hehehee.., tak taulah dia paham ke tak...??
so, kira soalan yang buat i fell the worst sangat tuh adalah.. the pengarah start asking back but in general...," kenapa kamu pilih zakat, kenapa tak pilih biasiswa lain"?? so, i pun offer lah myself to answer the question first.. " saya memilih zakat kerana zakat merupakan satu bentuk biasiswa dan bukannya pinjaman.." then, he ask me back," kalo kamu dapat JPA???" PART NIH YANG PALING-SANGAT-EXTREME-TAK-BEST!! "without thinking even a sec, i reply " saya tidak memohon biasiswa jpa."... OMG!!!! TIDAAAAKKKKKK!!!!!!!! WHY DO YOU LIE,SYAHIRAH!!! OMG!! OMG!! OH NOHHHHHH!!!
waktuh abis cakap, rasa cam nak terus tarik balik apa yang aku jawab.. tapi, mulut nih rasa cam melekat plak tak leh bukak.. memang rasa bersalah tersangat-sangat lah.. tak tahu nak gitaw camna.. memang rasa dah buat VERY-BIG-LIE sesangat!! memang lah ada orang yang cuba nak sedapkan hati nih kata, 'ala normal lah bohong camtuh dalam interview.., suma orang buat..' but, i do not fell like that,lah!! rasa cam terlalu desperate jeh sampai perlu bohong camtuh.. rasa memang tak patut sungguh.. aku sepatutnya sincere and cuba dig any answer yang lebih wise dan not-childish-like.., tapi tuh lah.., jawab dah jawab dah.. kalo masa nih memang bleh reverse, memang dah tak mo dah buat camtuh.. %$#@!! i am very regret and dissapointed of myself, lah!! uwahhhhh.....!!!
walaupun benda tuh dah macam norm dalam interview nih, tapi kalo salah, still salah lah.. as bab tutup aurat lah, kalo nak tengok, kes bukak aurat, dedah sini dan sana nih memang dah jadi norm dalam kalangan manusia tak kira lah melayu kah, islam kah.., and what so-ever-lah.. tapi, bukak aurat still consider as HARAM! ia tak jugak jadi HALAL even dah jadi sebati dalam kalangan manusia.. so, sama je lah dalam kes nih pun.. thus,that's why lah hati nih memang never tenteram lah sejak abis interview tadi.. takot plus serba-salah plus rasa ber DOSA pun ada gak...
so, kiranya moment nih memang i juz hope and pray for Allah bless.. hope, Allah will forgive me.. Insya-Allah i am very- total nekad dah tak mau dah buat kerja camnih..
then..., with little reluctant..,
assalamualaikum...
p/s: my mom say: ish3..., ko nih memang careless lah.. cam budak-budak..! agak-agaklah involuntarinya pun... * with laughing.. huhu..~ what do she meant for??? (#___+)